我人生的第一次

12月9号--11号

是我人生中第一次到外面打工

第一次自己赚钱

记得那一天，我还蛮期待的。

这份工，很多人都说工钱很高，我也觉得啦。。

RM90一天，还有佣金。。

做了三天，总共赚了RM290。

昨天，28/12，终于拿工资了！

好高兴啊！终于可以靠自己能力赚钱，

不必向长辈拿钱了。。

知道赚钱的辛苦了，

最近样样事情都算算算

我就是这样。

现在做着另一份工，

七天总共有RM740！

哈哈！而且很享受这份工呢！

接下来三个月会努力赚钱！

希望尽自己的能力来赚钱，不必增加妈妈的负担。

Huey Lin

祈祷

怀个孩子要十月，

不要时只需十分钟？

虽然我不知道怀孕的感觉是什么，

但我也知道那是一个生命

为什么你不把他带来世上？

你们每次都在吵

我真的都怕了

你知道吗？

你们吵架时，我会害怕，会哭。

但却不知可以向谁诉苦

也许两方都有错，

为什么不可以各让一步呢？？

为什么要搞得那么僵呢？

心淡了

心淡了

你每次都是一副不在乎的模样

我忍受够了

继续你的性格吧！

我觉得我们的友谊已变质了

感恩

其实，今年可以说是收获丰富的一年吧！

无论是在课业，生活，感情，友情，亲情，钱财方面，（哈哈）

我都获益不浅啦。

最近妈妈一直中字，当然也让我得益了。

我得到了

- laptop

- iPad 2

- Bonia watch

- 5000 cash

还有将要买的钢琴

还有还有，明年的韩国旅行。

我做梦也没想到今年会得到这些

也许今年幸运吧！

我感恩，感谢上帝给我的一切。

我珍惜。

其他方面，

SPM 也差不多考完了，

要踏入人生另一个阶段

脑袋里想很多东西啊！

要到哪里升学啦，

找工赚钱啦，

学车啦。。

很多很多。

真的觉得很多东西等着我去做。

朋友开始分离了，自己也成长了。

回想起五年的中学生涯，

觉得自己做了很多傻事

后悔当初没好好珍惜

如果可以回到从前，

我想我不会这一切一切的发生。

自己太傻了，尤其是2010年6月至9月那段时间

我想那段回忆我永远都不会忘记。

想说的是，

感谢上帝，给我最好的家庭

感谢上帝，给我很好的学习及生活环境

感谢上帝，让我还有三两个知己

感谢上帝，让我永远很多很好的事物。

我真的觉得自己很幸运，

家人从不在课业或选择科系上给我压力

妈妈给我很多自由，我可以经常和朋友出去，只要交待清楚，按时回家。

我心存感激，常常希望能帮助一些有需要的人。

日后，待我又能力时，我一定会热心公益。

PS：觉得今天写到怪怪，全部好像没联系的。

没关系，因为那是我心中说想，最真实的话。

我是个怪咖！哈哈！

Huey Lin

决定

其实今天我可以选择不告诉你

但我想我没必要对你做得那么绝

是，你伤害了我

但，这不是我对你报复的借口

我不怪你，我会自我检讨

谢谢你的言语伤害了我，

我成长了

不明白

不明白

为什么

总有些事

你不会和我分享

不明白

为什么

总有些事

你会一直隐藏

你知道 我关心你的一切吗？

也许 那是你的性格吧

我 习惯了

也不再像以前那样 一直追问

如果你愿意

你会主动告诉我

不愿意

我一直追问也没结果

但我想你会主动告诉我的机会很渺小吧。

那些年

是我输了，

还是你们赢了？

原来

这两年我们一起度过的日子是等于空白的。

我天真得以为我们会是一班团结一致，

一班曾经在高中生涯中一起有过美好回忆的一班。

我以为我们会是一班永远的朋友，

我以为我们将来会一起约出来聚会。

但 我错了，

我完完全全地错了。

原来那只是我的痴心妄想

原来你们根本并没有把我当成一起同班过两年的朋友。

心碎了。

看见你们的一字一句，

我心碎了 泪流了。

那一刹那，我觉得我是多么地傻

不，是你们一直都把我当傻瓜那样对待

你们的每一个字，都像一把刀那样地刺进我心里。

我心痛

可这一痛

也把我给痛醒了。

我压抑自己

告诉自己

我是幸运的

至少让我看清楚了你们

谢谢你们 我又上了人生中宝贵的一课

我也庆幸

至少我还有三两个不同班的好朋友

那些年 现在每个人都在那些年

我的那些年

-看错了人-。

- Huey Lin -

宽容

世上最宽阔的是海洋，比海洋宽阔的是天空，比天空更宽阔的是胸怀。
~法国著名文学大师~Victor Hugo~

宽容不是软弱，宽容是人生难得的佳境。

宽容，意味着你不会再为他人的错误而惩罚自己。

宽容是一种博大，它能包容人世间的喜怒哀乐。

宽容是一种境界，它能使人跃上大方磊落的台阶。

只有宽容，才能“愈合”不愉快的创伤。

只有宽容，才能消除人为的紧张。

真正的宽容，应该是能容人之短，又能容人之长。

宽容绝不是无原则的宽大无边，而是建立在自信，助人和有益于社会基础上的适度宽大。

学会宽容，意味着你不再心存疑虑，

学会宽容，意味着你的思想进入更高的境界。

试着设身处地为对方着想，将会使你获益终生。

Huey Lin

Thought of The Day

当你对他人的行为表示愤怒，

多半是想控制他人，

希望别人照你的心意做事。

然而，

当你用生气来伤害自己时，你反而让别人控制。

Huey Lin

Non-athlete competition day

This year, is my 5th year joining the non-athlete event.
For the previous 4 years, my form never win in the competition.
This year, we make a change!
My form won !
McNeil house Form 4 and 5 won the second place in class 1 !
I am really happy !

this is my last year in school,
last year in McNeil house,
but the first time winning a medal in my 5 years secondary school life,
how sad is it!
haha! but I believe this is enough for me, as I enjoyed the moment having fun with friends. :D

I believe this year McNeil can do better!
McNeilians! you can do it!

25.06.2011, Saturday
st marian gonna rock the school field!
all the 4 houses, McNeil, Pope, Playne and Pring gonna fight for the 1st place!
CheerS!!!

Huey Lin

19.06.2011 父亲节

父亲节，
我想每个做孩子的都会在今天和爸爸庆祝吧！

对于我而言，父亲节，没什么特别。
无可否认，从小我的爸爸是最疼我的。
但是自从几年前发生了一些事情后，
我和爸爸的感情开始疏远了。

在家，我和他没什么话说。
我们从不过问对方的生活。
他，不知道我几时有补习，
他，不知道我几时考试，
他，不知道我的成绩如何，
他，不知道我周末假期去哪里。

我和他，就如同陌生人。
我知道，我这样说，外人都会说我不孝，
但是，当我逐渐长大了，看的事情多了，
我会知道，他的为人如何。

虽然我知道他已经在改变，
但是我还是不能说服我内心的挣扎。
我，接受不到他。
我不能像从前那样，和他开玩笑。
我不能像从前那样和他聊天。
我不知道为什么。

今天父亲节，
我在妈妈家。妈妈告诉我和哥哥，约爸爸出来吃顿饭。
但是，我和哥哥都没什么愿意。
太多太多事情影响了我们对他的感情。

最后，我打了电话给爸爸，约他吃了顿饭。
但是，我知道我当时的语气，是多么地冷淡。
吃饭时，我也只顾和姑姑婆婆聊天。
我就是不能和他好好的聊天。

我知道这样的女儿是很不孝，
但是，回想之前所发生的一切，
我真的不能改变自己的想法。

我经历了很多事，知道了人情冷暖。
我学会了很多事，
学会了对什么事要用怎样的态度，怎样的说话方式。
学会了什么时候该说真话，什么时候该瞒着对方。
只有这样，才能生存下去。

从小，父母离异，家人吵架，和妈妈吵架，
家里与黑社会扯上关系，
家人和别人打官司，
朋友之间的暗斗，朋友说对方的坏话。
在我懂事后发生的种种事情，都影响了我的人生观，
也让我学会了独立，学会了要自己面对困难。

树欲静而风不止，
子欲养而亲不在。

Huey Lin

放对地方就是天才

生命的最高境界，

即是选对舞台，

走出自己的路，

然后尽情地发挥独特的才华与能力。

Huey Lin

Deactivated Facebook

I have deactiavted my facebook on 13/6/2011 Monday.
The reason I deactivated FB is :
1) I need more time to do my homework
2) I need more time to concentrate on my study
3) I feel FB is quite boring
4) I don't want to talk to you so often
5) I feel upset everytime when I know you are online but you didn't want to reply me
6) I don't want to get involve in so many things

My FB is just temporary deactivated,
I want to see how long I can survive without FB.

I admit, at first few days in the morning before I go to school,
I on my FB and check about my friend's things.
Slowly, I stop doing that.
I feel like it is so stupid I deactivate and reactivate and deactivate again.

Today is Saturday, I think I am now slowly get used to it without FB

Without FB,
ya, my life is abit bored,
but I started to sleep early every night,
I don't need to spend time chating with friend on FB until late night.
I don't need to wait for their reply.
My hp is not with me all the time, I feel free
I don't need to keep on check my hp for any notifications.

This week, although I sleep early, but I still feel sleepy in the school.
I think I will get used to it very soon.
next week, is another new week for me.
I will try my best, to finish up my homework everyday and try to do revision.
I knew I have been saying this since beginning of the year,
but until now I don't think I have done anything yet.

SPM is just around the corner.
I really need to start my revision.
I really don't want to regret after that

I want to get scholarship,
I don't want to burden my parents.
I want to make them proud of me.
I want to get a good result.

Another 5 more months,
I will be sitting for SPM.
Time is running, I need to catch up many things.

I feel regret now for playing the fool when I was form 4.
I really regret.

It's time for me to continue my Add maths project,
so I will stop here :D

Huey Lin

Sunway Outing =)

7/6/2011
I went to Ice Skating with Wan Shen, An Ni and Jasmine @ Sunway Pyramid

This is my first time outing with An Ni and Wan Shen.
I get up early morning, prepared myself, and go to KTM station with Jasmine.
Unfortunately, An Ni cant join us in this KTM trip as her dad said is very dangerous.

We met Wan Shen at KL Central.
Before this, An Ni and I had plan something just to confuse Jasmine.
and i think this plan is success.

Here it goes:
in the train, WS help me to carry bag and the people in the train looking at her. haha :p
when we reach Sunway, we walked close together, laughing all the way.
The most awkward part is, I teach WS how to skate, but she make me injured! Ishh ! haha :D
At the same time, An Ni keep influence Jasmine.
and i guess Jasmine trusted it.
At last, 4 of us went to toilet together.
and this is the time make Jasmine feel shocked!

She is confused! She really thought WS is a guy!
after I showed to Jasmine her IC, she still can't believe it!

We went to watched Pirates of The Caribbean,and had lunch at Sushi King
Unfortunately, An Ni can't join us too as she need to go back with her mum together.

after movie, my mum bring us for dinner and sent both of them back home.

I really enjoyed today. It is a memorable day for me because I can have fun with all of you!

Huey Lin

YLRALT

YLRALT, is my last YL camp in Girls' Brigade.
It was held at PJ Trinity Church @ 29/5 to 1/6

Seriously, I really love to go to GB camps.
This is because I had more fun at there compared to school life.
All the friends there, are nice, kind and helpful.
They will not care what kind of person you are.
They use thier sincere heart to talk to you, be friend with you.

Well, this camp, is abit special.
because we have to plan our own outing, our own special event.

For the outing, we went to Taman Jaya playground.
I swear that i have never been that crazy before.
I laugh and shout like crazy in the playground.
I had lots of fun with An Ni, Wan Shen, Boon Xin, etc.

first night at the camp, I was insomnia.
At first I went to toilet with An Ni,
then I passed by Wan Shen's room and I sms her.
at last we went to her room and had a nice secret night talk.
She told us about her life.
我很钦佩她。
she is tough, she solved all the problems by herself.
She rarely feel family love, but as she told us, she had a BFF who really helped her a lot.
at about 2.30am, we went back to our room and sleep :)
Shhhh =)

Third night, the last night, after the ' NOT JUST ANOTHER NIGHT' event,
Wan Shen came to our room and chat.
The most memorable moment for me was,
we sneak out to the kitchen and had a cold milo as 3 of us was very hungry :p

Last day, we had a Parade Drill performance to the officer.
after that, yea, we say GOODBYE to each other :(

In conclusion,
this YLRALT is special and memorable for me because
1) we had a nice officer, AW Wan Shen to teach us drill
2) Mrs Boon cook for us lots of delicious food
3) We had a special outing and special event
4) An Ni and I had a secret talk with Wan Shen at late night
5) We ALL HAD FUN TOGTHER!!!!

After this camp, my target is PIONEER PIN!
I have to work hard for it, done my task and practical work in order to achieve this =)

7th National Drill Camp

12/3 -- 15/3 I attended a Drill Camp @ Wesley Methodist School, Sentul.
What I can say about this drill camp is

FUN
ENJOY
AWESOME
HAPPY
TOUGH

Although we are trained by the police and strict officer, but I really enjoyed this camp very much.
I knew a lot of new friends, from Sabah, Sarawak, Johor, Teluk Intan, etc.
Besides, I learnt alot of new things too.

This is a camp that is very different from all the GB camp I attended before.
This camp,
no boring lesson in class,
no need to sit for long hours

I really love drill so much,
because it teach me to be dicipline, alert, and listen to instruction.

Last day of the drill camp,
we had a drill competition. This is very special because all the group members are from different company.

We need to work together, communicate with each other in a very short pratice time.

When the moment the result announced, I feel shocked, surprise, excited and happy!!!
my group won the CHAMPION in the advance group!

OMG! I'm actually can't believe it!

Anyway, this camp is really fun!
It makes me love GB more and more! <3

SPM

SPM, 11 subjects, can I handle it?
BM, BI, BC, Moral, Sejarah, Mathematics, Additional Mathematics,
Biology, Chemistry, Physics, Akaun.

Can I really handle it?
I feel I'm so stress, but I don't know where my stress come from.
I seem like so free everyday, sleep, watch TV....
even when I have time I don't even take a book and study!
I AM WASTING MY TIME!!!

Recently, the intervension result is out,
some of my subject improve,
but some, was like hell, DROP!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!
I should have study properly and not playing fool all the time.

From now onwards, I'm gonna study hard, work hard,
for my SPM, for my future.

Chinese New Year Day 1

First day of Chinese New Year,
yet, I don't feel anything.
I just feel like, today is the day to get ang pao and go pray.

I woke up at around 10.30 am today.
After I get myself ready, get ang pao from my family and had my breakfast,
then I went out with my mum and my brother for pray @ Petaling Street :)

At around 3pm , we reach home and have some rest.

Sigh.....no CNY feel this year, and I don't feel like want to celebrate also.
Maybe because I have grown up, not like last time, want to play fireworks so badly.

Now, I am super bored at my mum's house.
Tomorrow will follow my mum go back to her hometown--Kuantan.
I think my mum will be sad as this time she go back to Kuantan, my grandfather is not here anymore. :( Hope my grandfather is having a better life in another place :)

My revolution for this New Year :

1) Finish up my homework everyday
2) Start my revision
3) Update my blog everyday if possiblee
4) Forget the unhappy things
5) Start my new life

Yuriko Nakamura - Long long ago piano solo by Parkthoven

I love this song so much <3 :)

Chinese New Year

Hooray!! CNY will just come in another 9 more hours :)
Wish all my friends and family Happy Chinese New Year
and enjoy your CNY.

Well, yesterday was a night which make me feel nervous and sad.
I felt nervous because I had told my mum the truth, luckily she is not really angry at me
and I felt sad because someone said something to me which I can't really tell it here

Never mind, I would like to say thank you to that person for telling me something,
and I am willing to change my behaviour and my attitude as well as the way I talk to people.
Thanks for everything you teach me and I learnt many things from you. ( hope one day you will see this post)

And yeah, my mum was so cute and funny this morning.
I will never forget what she did this morning, hahaha, it is really funny
I love my mum so much <3>
Anyway, I'm here to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year

P.S : This photo is taken and edited by Pei Teng. So nice :)

and I'm going to continue my homework now :D

Public Holiday + School Holiday

Mr Sun, finally you are here.
I miss you so much <3 CNY is just around the corner, yet, i don't have any CNY mood. why? is it because this year is Form 5? is it because of SPM? But, it's alright, i just want to get money... *evil laugh* After CNY or maybe after my intervension, I will go and buy a laptop, a laptop that is belongs to me only :)
With the laptop, I can do lots of things.
After that, I will put more effort on my study, I don't want to regret after my SPM.

Now, what I need to do is, to clear my cupboard and give it to my brother.
and all my stuff will shift to another place :)
Thank you so much to my grandma that you are agree with it :D

At last, finish up my homework, and of course start my revision.
Hope that I will do my revision as soon as possible,
because the intervension is just another 13 more days.

Say Hiiiiii =)

Hey people!

Welcome me on blog!

I had updated my blog!

Soon I will update you guys with my recent life!

See ya!